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Last post. NEW GERBIL! [Apr. 19th, 2009|02:36 pm]
[mood| excited]
[music| My mom's exercise tape in the other room XD]

This will probably be my last post in this journal...cuz I got a new one! It's veryneatm0nster. Idk why, it just bugs me when there are numbers in my username (the 0 as the o in my new one doesn't count haha), plus, I just wanted a new one. And I fucking love Dexter, so I'm pretty happy. I've spent the last few days trying to fix it up almost like this one. Like, joining all the communities that I'm in on this one. I never realized how many communities I was in =O_O= And adding the few friends that I have on this one. I still need to transfer my icons and probably get a new mood theme, but it should be up and running real soon. In other news...you know that girl in my Psych class I mentioned that relentlessly stares at me? Well, sources on the inside (no, that doesn't mean me facebooking her. I don't even know her last name) tell me that she's MARRIED. I was like WUT. SERIOUSLY?! She looks young! And apparently, she is. I mean, I guess she's only 19. But I guess that's not young for marriage nowadays.. BUT STILL. WTF. So not only was I slightly heartbroken, but now I'm right back to square one. WHY THE FUCK IS THIS GIRL STARING AT ME?! Before, I was thinking it's gotta be either she wants to fuck me or fight me. And since the first one is now out of the question, seeing as how she's MARRIED, she must wanna fight me. I have no idea why though, seeing as how I don't know her. Oh well. I guess I'll just stop worrying about it. Now that I'm 100% sure that she's not gay, wtf do I care anyways? XD It's a shame though...she's fuckin' adorable. ...BUT ANYWAYS. GUESS WHAT?! NEW EPISODE OF CRIMINAL INTENT TONIGHT! I'M SO EXCITED, YOU HAVE NO IDEA. I WANT EAMES, I NEEEEED EAMES <333 LAST NIGHT, I HAD A DREAM THAT IT WAS TODAY AND ME AND MY MOM WERE WATCHING SOMETHING FUNNY ON TV FOR A LONG TIME AND THEN I REALIZED IT WAS 11:00 AT NIGHT AND I WAS LIKE "OMG MOM I MISSED CRIMINAL INTENT! AND BREAKING BAD!" AND I WAS FREAKING OUT. AND THEN I SUDDENLY WOKE UP AND I WAS ALL STRESSED OUT AND BREATHING HEAVY. Haha, I really must get a life....BUT KATHRYN ERBE <333
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Happy birthday to Emma Watson! <3 [Apr. 15th, 2009|11:20 am]
[mood| curious]

I'm typing this from skool because I now have nothing to do at this time every day...because I dropped my math class....AGAIN. I was failing it last semester and had to drop it and take it again this semester with a different (better) teacher...and I STILL can't pass it. Idk what I'm gonna do. I HAVE to pass that class if I wanna graduate from Scott. But I just don't see how that's ever gonna happen. I'm just too stupid when it comes to math. And the worst part is, I've gotten, like, all A's and B's in all the other classes I've taken here. Math is the only thing holding me back. And there's no way around it. I met with my advisor after skool on Monday to register for spring classes and she said it'd probably be a good idea for me to take a break from math...and I agreed. So next semster, I will have NO math. Which is a huge relief because that's really all I worry about. ALL THE TIME. And after next semester, I'll only have a few more credits that I need to get to graduate. It sucks that 2 of them are math (yeah, I still have to pass ANOTHER math class after this one...idk how THAT'S gonna happen) but my advisor said that I can take, like, that math class, and maybe one other class during that semster, so that way, I can concentrate more on math. Because I think that's a big reason why I do so poorly. Because I have 3 other classes to worry about. It just sucks though, I'm gonna be stuck here at Scott for a lot longer than I had planned. I guess that's probably a good thing though, seeing as how I still have NO idea what I want to do with my life. I'm really only going here to keep my parents happy, but once I graduate from here, they're gonna expect me to do something else...and I rly don't wanna DO anything. That's my problem. So as long as I'm going to skool here, my parents should be satisfied. I haven't even told my mom about dropping my math class yet. She's gonna be pissed. And my dad's gonna be SUPER pissed. Oh well though, I mean wtf can I do? Anyway...since I won't have any math to worry about next semester, it's not looking too bad. I'm taking Psychology of Gender, which is a class I've always wanted to take, but could never get in because it was always full, and Lori teaches it so that's fucking awesome. I would take anything that woman teaches, seriously, she's the shit. And I'm taking an on-line class next semester too, which I'm kinda leary about. I didn't WANT to do it, but I couldn't get the actual class to fit in with my schedule and my advisor said that in that particular class, most of the homework is done on-line anyways, so it shouldn't be much different. I hope she's right. I've heard that some classes are way easier on-line and some classes are way harder. So idk...I'm just hoping this one is one of the easier ones. And I'm gonna have to remember to do the work. That's the main thing I'm worried about. Knowing me, I'll procrastinate and blow it off and end up failing the thing. But yeah, for the most part, my schedule for next semester seems alright. On Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, I'll be outta here by 11:30 (which is rly early for me, usually I don't get out til around 1) and I only have one class on Tuesdays and Thursdays (which means I should have no problem getting my shit done for my on-line class). And right now, since I no longer have that math class, I have a free hour, which I can use to do homework (or update my gerbil XD) and on Tuesdays and Thursdays, I'll only have Psych, which means I get to sleep in until around 9 now. So that's pretty sweet. Oh, and speaking of Psych, I don't think I've ever mentioned this, but ever since the beginning of the semester, there's this girl in that class that sits on the other side of the room and just STARES at me. Which is RLY freaky because the EXACT same thing happened to me in the last 2 psych classes I was in. Idk what it is about Psych... but this girl is fucking RELENTLESS. More-so than the others, I think. It freaked me out at first, but she's fuckin' adorable, so it's OK. I just wish I knew what she was thinking. I mean, I'm pretty sure SHE started the staring, but maybe I did, subconsciously, and SHE was just staring at ME staring at HER. And you know, when someone stares at you, then you're like, "awkward..." but then you keep looking over at them to see if they're still staring at you? So then YOU end up staring at THEM? So I'm wondering if maybe that's what happened and now it's just gotten out of control. I'm so curious as to what she's thinking, I sort of smiled at her the other day just to see what would happen. She looked surprised that I had reacted to her at all. And so the other day, I cocked my head at her, all curious-like. And she looked like she was about to laugh. And then the other day, it mighta been just me, but I coulda sworn SHE cocked her head at me. Idk. It's fucked up. It's too bad I never get the opportunity to talk to her. Well, I've actually had 2 recently, but they got fucked up. In Psych, we were forced to get into groups recently, and I have no friends in that class (or any other class for that matter) so I just sat there awkwardly. And the girl stared at me, and I stared at her and it was, like, super awkward because neither of us knew what to do. And then she wound up leaving before me, and I told Lori that I wasn't in a group and she was like, "Well, those 2 girls that sit right there *points to area where staring girl sits* only have 2, so you could be with them....or you could be with this group, they only have 3" and I was like, "...whatever, it doesn't matter to me" when rly I was thinking HOLY SHIT, PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, PUT ME IN THE GROUP WITH THE STARING GIRL, I MUST KNOW WHAT IS UP WITH HER. But of course, since the other group she mentioned was still there, she asked them if it would be OK if I joined their group. And of course, they said yeah, I mean, it's not like they were gonna be like, UM, NO THANKS. So that's one missed opportunity. And then this weekend, me and my bro went into Petsmart to get me another feesh (Jack finally died. I've never had a fish live that long. He had a good life. RIP, Jack) and we walked into the doors and I almost had a heart attack because THAT GIRL FUCKING WORKS THERE. And I was like HOLY SHIT, THIS IS IT, THIS IS MY CHANCE TO FINALLY TALK TO HER. I mean, it's not like I was gonna mention our little staring contest or anything like that, I just wanna see what she's like, how she would react to me, you know? Cuz I don't know if she wants to fight me or fuck me. And so I picked out a fish (he's orange X3) and got in line. And then, outta nowhere, this older bitch comes up and goes, "I CAN GET YOU OVER ON THIS REGISTER" and she looked at the person in front of me and they were like, "Oh, I'm OK" cuz there was only one person in front of them. So she looked at me. And so I HAD to go. I mean, it woulda been weird if I didn't. But AW MAN WAS I PISSED. She RUINED my chance! And now we're right back to square one. Every Tuesday and Thursday, me and this girl just STARE at eachother. Neither of us knowing what the other is thinking. And I don't know about her, but it's driving me INSANE. And I mean, what if she DOES wanna fuck me? AND WE'RE JUST SITTING HERE, STARING AT EACHOTHER, WASTING TIME. I mean, I highly doubt that's what's goin' on, she's WAY too cute to be gay, muchless be attracted to ME, but either way, I hate not knowing wtf is going on inside her head while she relentlessly stares at me EVERY CLASS. *SIGH* Well anyways, I think I've rambled enough for one entry...OH WAIT. ONE MORE THING. AMBER('S GHOST). ON HOUSE. AND SHE'S GONNA BE ON THERE AGAIN. MORE. NEXT EPISODE. WHICH IS 2 WEEKS AWAY AND IT'S KILLING ME. OMG AMBERRRR <333 OH, AND ALSO. CRIMINAL INTENT RETURNS ON SUNDAY!!! I NEED MY EAMES!!! <333 K, I'M DONE.
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Happy birthday to Jennifer Morrison! <3 [Apr. 12th, 2009|02:21 pm]
[mood| peaceful]
[music| Critical Bill - Downtown the World]

Yes, that's right, Jennifer Morrison's birthday is more important than Easter in my book. But if God's real, he already hates me anyways because I'm gay. And even if he is real and DOESN'T hate me because I'm gay (which would make more sense seeing as how HE'S the one who made me gay)...then I'm sure he understands. I mean, come on. It's JENNIFER FUCKING MORRISON <3

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Oh, so it wasn't so pointless and random afterall... [Apr. 7th, 2009|07:40 pm]
[mood| surprised]

So I guess I owe an apology to the writers of House for flipping out XD But this shit is crazy, check this shit out!


That makes me feel a little better, knowing that there was a valid reason for killing Kutner off like that. And of course I'm happy for Kal too.

I will sleep easier knowing this XD
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STOP KILLING MY FRIENDS! [Apr. 7th, 2009|01:39 pm]
[mood| sad]
[music| Tribute to Ripper roo Vol. 15]

Does anyone realize how excited I was when Kal Penn (fucking KUMAR) first appeared on House? If you do, then you can MAYBE POSSIBLY BEGIN to imagine the DESPAIR I felt after last night's episode. SERIOUSLY. WTF. WHY. JUST....WHY. How could the writers think that that was a good idea? I HAVE NO LIFE, PEOPLE. VERY FEW REAL FRIENDS. I WATCH TV FOR A LIVING. THE PEOPLE ON MY SHOWS ARE MY FRIENDS. I'D RLY APPRECIATE IT IF WRITERS WOULD STOP KILLING THEM OFF. I CAN'T TAKE IT. But in other news, I had an awesome dream last night (XD). It was about House, but surprisingly, it wasn't depressing. I dreamt that it was TODAY and I went in the front bedroom and turned on the TV and House was on, but it was a new one. And I was like WHAT, WHAT'S GOING ON. And Cuddy & Thirteen wound up going on a date. Idk why, but they did. And they were both all dressed up and they looked AMAZING. Cuddy even had her hair straightened <3 And they were walking down the street together and Cuddy goes, "So where are we going?" and Thirteen goes, "To Club OUT" (Get it? OUT?) And I can't remember what Cuddy's response was to that, but then Thirteen said something like, "Oh, I'm gonna find out what you like before the night is over" and Cuddy laughed and raised her eyebrows like "Oh yeah? I dare ya". And in retrospect, I take that as, Thirteen was planning on finding out if Cuddy is completely straight or not, you know, she plans on finding out if she likes men or women, or both. But I remember, while I was dreaming it, I interpreted it that she was refering to SEX. Like, she was going to find out what she liked IN BED. And since it was MY dream, I'm pretty sure it was MEANT to be interpreted that way haha. I don't rly remember much of the rest of the dream, unfortunately. I remember at one point, they went into a candy shop of some sort...and then at the end, the dream completely changed and I was in it WITH Thirteen but Cuddy was gone (WHY?! WHY DID SHE HAVE TO GO?!) and we made out intensely. And then my alarm clock went off and interrupted it before it could go any further =>.<= MAYBE CUDDY WAS JUST IN THE BATHROOM AND SHE PLANNED ON COMING BACK AND HAVING A THREESOME. BUT NO, MY STUPID ALARM CLOCK HAD TO GO AND WAKE ME UP. I could kill it, I seriously could.
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We find ourselves in the same old mess singin' drunken lullabies [Mar. 17th, 2009|12:37 pm]
[mood| drunk]
[music| Flogging Molly - Drunken Lullabies]

(I'm not actually drunk, but I will be later, so I figured, why not)

Happy St. Patrick's Day! I've never rly been a fan of St.Patrick's Day, because everyone runs around all day bragging about how, "I'M, LIKE, 5% IRISH!" and all that shit. Uh, my last name is FITZGERALD. It rly doesn't get much more irish than that. I mean, it DOES, but...you get what I'm saying. My mom's side is irish and so is my dad's. I'm basically completely irish, with, like a little bit of, like...idk, german or something. Plus, I'm abnormally short and almost positive I'm a leprechaun. SO STFU AND SHOW SOME RESPECT, BITCHES >XD Also, I had a bad experience with St. Patrick's Day back in elementary school. I don't remember what grade I was in, but I was pretty little. Prolly like, 2nd grade. And I had forgotten about St.Patrick's Day, and apparently, so did my mom, because she let me go to skool without wearing any green. And everyone made fun of me and pinched me and this one kid pinched me SUPER hard and I cried. So yeah. Not rly a fan of this holiday DX But today, I'm actually going to celebrate. So then maybe I won't have as much hatred for this holiday. Either that or I'll wake up tomorrow with even MORE hatred for it. But hey, it's worth a shot, right? In other news, Law & Order: SVU is on tonight! A new episode with Cabot! It breaks my heart that I'm not gonna be able to watch it, but hopefully SOMEBODY will tape it for me. Hopefully, it'll be my brother, because he knows how to work the VCR, but knowing him, he'll leave to go get high and/or drunk, leaving my mom in charge of the VCR, which means she'll either forget about it completely or be too confused to work the VCR. So I'm uber worried, cuz I CAN'T MISS IT, I JUST CAN'T. NOT WHEN CABOT'S ON THERE, PROVIDING THE SHOW WITH PLENTY OF MUCH NEEDED ALEX/OLIVIA EYESEX. WHICH REMINDS ME:

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I HAVE A COMPUTER AGAIN!!! [Mar. 13th, 2009|10:44 am]
[mood| ecstatic]
[music| Can't Buy Soul - Dogboy]

I got my computer yesterday! It's so fancy and flat (my old one was fucking HUGE and outdated) and the screen is, like...WIDE....and it smells good cuz it's new! XD I'm at skool right now though, cuz I spent all day yesterday, gettin' used to the new computer and messing around with itunes, trying to get music on my ipod FINALLY. So I never got around to updating this thing. But I need something to do every Friday from 10:20 to 11:20 so it's alright. But yeah, no more staying after skool every Tuesday and Thursday! I can go straight home now and EAT and go on MY computer! HEEE, IT FEELS SO GOOD TO HAVE A COMPUTER AGAIN. AND I HAVE A CD BURNER NOW TOO, SO I CAN MAKE MORE RIPPER ROOS. But Imuna get my ipod all loaded up first before I start making CDs. Which is gonna take a while, because I'm starting with the Ripper roos and all the tracks show up as 'Track 1', 'Track 2', and so on, so I have to go through each individual song and manually put in the song title and artist and all that, and it's just rly time-consuming. There are 14 Ripper roos. Well, 13 because my Volume 1 got lost and I finally found it on the floor of my car and it's all scatched up and doesn't work anymore. But yeah, so it's gonna take a long time to fill up my ipod. Especially since Amanda hooked me up fat and got me a 16GB one, so it holds quite a bit of music XP But hey, it's spring break! So I'll have time to screw around with it. Ooh, and yesterday was also my brother's birthday and my parents got him the newest Crash Bandicoot game, Mind Over Mutant. WHICH IS AWESOME. It's like a sequel to Crash of the Titans. Which is way different than the previous crash games, and I was disappointed in it at first, but now I fucking love it. Especially when you play it with someone else, mute it, and listen to music. Hell, pretty much any video game is great like that. But yeah, so I'm pretty excited about that. In other news....who watched SVU Tuesday?! OMG, CABOT. SO HAWT. SO FUCKING HAWT. AND I FLIPPED THE FUCK OUT WHEN SHE SHOWED UP AND OLIVIA WAS LIKE "Alex....!" AND THEN LOOKED HER UP AND DOWN. SHE TOTALLY DID, SHE CHECKED HER OUT, AND I'M NOT INSANE, AMANDA SAW IT TOO. IT WAS AMAZINGGGG. ALEX/OLIVIA FTW. Oooh, and then on Wednesday, I was pretty excited to hear Dogboy's 'Can't Buy Soul' on Damages! I fucking LOVE Dogboy, and that song is AMAZING. Actually it's the first track on Ripper roo 2. So yeah, I thought that was pretty sweet. ....well, shit, I still have 50 mins to kill until my next class. Lame. And it sucks cuz all we're doing is taking a test in there, and then we can leave. Which is cool I guess, but I feel like I'm wasting my time sitting around for an hour, when I'm just gonna go to class for 5 mins and then take off. *sigh* I guess I'll just go fill out a shitload of myspace surveys then..

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Happy birthday to Olivia Wilde! <3 [Mar. 10th, 2009|01:37 pm]
[mood| hungry]
[music| Damian Marley - Welcome to Jamrock]

House was new last night! Which was a big deal for me because it WASN'T new last week. SO I WAS HAVING WITHDRAWALS. And Susan Egan was on there! She looked rly bad because of that AWFUL haircut though =>.<= NOBODY LOOKS GOOD WITH HAIR LIKE THAT. Normally, I think she's fuckin hawt, and her VOICE is even hotter......OMG.....but it wasn't doin' anything for me last night :/ Not with that hair. It made me sad. CUZ IT COULD HAVE BEEN SO EPIC, BUT THEY HAD TO RUIN IT WITH HER HAIR. ....but anyways......TONIGHT WILL BE EPIC. BECAUSE CABOT IS RETURNING TO SVU. YES PLEASE. GAWD, CABOT, YOU'RE SO DAMN SEXY I CAN'T STAND IT. I AM PRAYING FOR SOME ALEX/OLIVIA SEX IN THE NEAR FUTURE. But with Mariska's lung problems....awwwahhh, I'm so worried about her. She's been hospitalized TWICE now cuz of this shit :[ But when she gets better, I will be expecting some intense Alex/Olivia sex. Right now, in the beginning stages of Alex's return, I'll happily settle for some basic eye sex though X3 Well, shit, I'd better go, I'm gonna head over to Lily's for a bit and pick up some caribou lou that I left there. But GUESS WHAT?! COMPUTER NEXT WEEK. Next Thursday to be exact. I'm SO excited. No more of this staying after skool and starving to death just so I can get my internet fix. And I can FINALLY put music on my ipod! And burn CDs! BUT...my dad works nights on Thursday, so he probably won't even be able to hook it up and all that until Friday night. And I work Friday night. And Saturday morning. So I have to wait 2 whole more days most likely. But still, I'm excited. OK, I BETTER GO, BYE, WATCH SVU TONIGHT.
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I'm down for my crown [Mar. 3rd, 2009|02:02 pm]
[mood| pleased]
[music| I Drink Alone - George Thorogood and the Destroyers]

So I actually had what most would consider a "normal" weekend for a 20-year-old girl, especially compared to my typical sitting at home watching TV all weekend. Saturday night, I went over to Lily's, where we got hammered off crown and played Rock Band all night long. It was a good time. Then on Sunday, Jake called me and told me that his brother ended up with an extra ticket to the George Thorogood concert and so they were lookin' for someone to take with. Of course I wanted to go. So I did. And it was kickass. We sipped whiskey on the way there and then his brother got us a couple rounds of crown&coke during the show, so we were feelin' pretty damn good. And George fuckin' rocked it. It was awesome. I owe Jake $30 now though cuz I HAD to have a T-shirt but I didn't have any cash on me. I'm literally broke right now. So I'll hit him back next week. It's a sweet shirt though, on the front it says 'George Thorogood and the Destroyers' and on the back it says 'I drink alone' with a neat little picture. So yeah. I actually left my house this weekend, to do something other than work! With friends! That doesn't happent to me very much, and I gotta say, it felt pretty good, and I hope it starts happening more often.
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Is it March 19th yet?! [Feb. 26th, 2009|01:32 pm]
[mood| anxious]
[music| Kottonmouth Kings - High Society]

My dad finally ordered a computer yesterday....but we're not getting it until March 19th DX THAT'S LIKE, 3 WEEKS. I was so excited about this and now I'm like fuuuuuck. I mean, at least we're getting one....BUT STILL.

Oh, and in other news: http://www.afterellen.com/blog/sarahwarn/stephanie-march-talks-about-an-Alex-Olivia-romance-on-SVU
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