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[Apr. 15th, 2009|11:20 am] |
[mood|  curious]
I'm typing this from skool because I now have nothing to do at this time every day...because I dropped my math class....AGAIN. I was failing it last semester and had to drop it and take it again this semester with a different (better) teacher...and I STILL can't pass it. Idk what I'm gonna do. I HAVE to pass that class if I wanna graduate from Scott. But I just don't see how that's ever gonna happen. I'm just too stupid when it comes to math. And the worst part is, I've gotten, like, all A's and B's in all the other classes I've taken here. Math is the only thing holding me back. And there's no way around it. I met with my advisor after skool on Monday to register for spring classes and she said it'd probably be a good idea for me to take a break from math...and I agreed. So next semster, I will have NO math. Which is a huge relief because that's really all I worry about. ALL THE TIME. And after next semester, I'll only have a few more credits that I need to get to graduate. It sucks that 2 of them are math (yeah, I still have to pass ANOTHER math class after this one...idk how THAT'S gonna happen) but my advisor said that I can take, like, that math class, and maybe one other class during that semster, so that way, I can concentrate more on math. Because I think that's a big reason why I do so poorly. Because I have 3 other classes to worry about. It just sucks though, I'm gonna be stuck here at Scott for a lot longer than I had planned. I guess that's probably a good thing though, seeing as how I still have NO idea what I want to do with my life. I'm really only going here to keep my parents happy, but once I graduate from here, they're gonna expect me to do something else...and I rly don't wanna DO anything. That's my problem. So as long as I'm going to skool here, my parents should be satisfied. I haven't even told my mom about dropping my math class yet. She's gonna be pissed. And my dad's gonna be SUPER pissed. Oh well though, I mean wtf can I do? Anyway...since I won't have any math to worry about next semester, it's not looking too bad. I'm taking Psychology of Gender, which is a class I've always wanted to take, but could never get in because it was always full, and Lori teaches it so that's fucking awesome. I would take anything that woman teaches, seriously, she's the shit. And I'm taking an on-line class next semester too, which I'm kinda leary about. I didn't WANT to do it, but I couldn't get the actual class to fit in with my schedule and my advisor said that in that particular class, most of the homework is done on-line anyways, so it shouldn't be much different. I hope she's right. I've heard that some classes are way easier on-line and some classes are way harder. So idk...I'm just hoping this one is one of the easier ones. And I'm gonna have to remember to do the work. That's the main thing I'm worried about. Knowing me, I'll procrastinate and blow it off and end up failing the thing. But yeah, for the most part, my schedule for next semester seems alright. On Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, I'll be outta here by 11:30 (which is rly early for me, usually I don't get out til around 1) and I only have one class on Tuesdays and Thursdays (which means I should have no problem getting my shit done for my on-line class). And right now, since I no longer have that math class, I have a free hour, which I can use to do homework (or update my gerbil XD) and on Tuesdays and Thursdays, I'll only have Psych, which means I get to sleep in until around 9 now. So that's pretty sweet. Oh, and speaking of Psych, I don't think I've ever mentioned this, but ever since the beginning of the semester, there's this girl in that class that sits on the other side of the room and just STARES at me. Which is RLY freaky because the EXACT same thing happened to me in the last 2 psych classes I was in. Idk what it is about Psych... but this girl is fucking RELENTLESS. More-so than the others, I think. It freaked me out at first, but she's fuckin' adorable, so it's OK. I just wish I knew what she was thinking. I mean, I'm pretty sure SHE started the staring, but maybe I did, subconsciously, and SHE was just staring at ME staring at HER. And you know, when someone stares at you, then you're like, "awkward..." but then you keep looking over at them to see if they're still staring at you? So then YOU end up staring at THEM? So I'm wondering if maybe that's what happened and now it's just gotten out of control. I'm so curious as to what she's thinking, I sort of smiled at her the other day just to see what would happen. She looked surprised that I had reacted to her at all. And so the other day, I cocked my head at her, all curious-like. And she looked like she was about to laugh. And then the other day, it mighta been just me, but I coulda sworn SHE cocked her head at me. Idk. It's fucked up. It's too bad I never get the opportunity to talk to her. Well, I've actually had 2 recently, but they got fucked up. In Psych, we were forced to get into groups recently, and I have no friends in that class (or any other class for that matter) so I just sat there awkwardly. And the girl stared at me, and I stared at her and it was, like, super awkward because neither of us knew what to do. And then she wound up leaving before me, and I told Lori that I wasn't in a group and she was like, "Well, those 2 girls that sit right there *points to area where staring girl sits* only have 2, so you could be with them....or you could be with this group, they only have 3" and I was like, "...whatever, it doesn't matter to me" when rly I was thinking HOLY SHIT, PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, PUT ME IN THE GROUP WITH THE STARING GIRL, I MUST KNOW WHAT IS UP WITH HER. But of course, since the other group she mentioned was still there, she asked them if it would be OK if I joined their group. And of course, they said yeah, I mean, it's not like they were gonna be like, UM, NO THANKS. So that's one missed opportunity. And then this weekend, me and my bro went into Petsmart to get me another feesh (Jack finally died. I've never had a fish live that long. He had a good life. RIP, Jack) and we walked into the doors and I almost had a heart attack because THAT GIRL FUCKING WORKS THERE. And I was like HOLY SHIT, THIS IS IT, THIS IS MY CHANCE TO FINALLY TALK TO HER. I mean, it's not like I was gonna mention our little staring contest or anything like that, I just wanna see what she's like, how she would react to me, you know? Cuz I don't know if she wants to fight me or fuck me. And so I picked out a fish (he's orange X3) and got in line. And then, outta nowhere, this older bitch comes up and goes, "I CAN GET YOU OVER ON THIS REGISTER" and she looked at the person in front of me and they were like, "Oh, I'm OK" cuz there was only one person in front of them. So she looked at me. And so I HAD to go. I mean, it woulda been weird if I didn't. But AW MAN WAS I PISSED. She RUINED my chance! And now we're right back to square one. Every Tuesday and Thursday, me and this girl just STARE at eachother. Neither of us knowing what the other is thinking. And I don't know about her, but it's driving me INSANE. And I mean, what if she DOES wanna fuck me? AND WE'RE JUST SITTING HERE, STARING AT EACHOTHER, WASTING TIME. I mean, I highly doubt that's what's goin' on, she's WAY too cute to be gay, muchless be attracted to ME, but either way, I hate not knowing wtf is going on inside her head while she relentlessly stares at me EVERY CLASS. *SIGH* Well anyways, I think I've rambled enough for one entry...OH WAIT. ONE MORE THING. AMBER('S GHOST). ON HOUSE. AND SHE'S GONNA BE ON THERE AGAIN. MORE. NEXT EPISODE. WHICH IS 2 WEEKS AWAY AND IT'S KILLING ME. OMG AMBERRRR <333 OH, AND ALSO. CRIMINAL INTENT RETURNS ON SUNDAY!!! I NEED MY EAMES!!! <333 K, I'M DONE. |
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